Doctor, there's a castle in my head (part four)

When there is a situation in my world that I don't know how to deal with, I retreat from it. I move into my interior world and live a life without flesh. I guess this is a point where I need to admit something. Part of the creation of this world is because I was once incarcerated in a psychiatric ward. There is nothing like be strapped to a gurney and left alone in a back corridor to be harrassed and molested by various people during the day and left alone with inmates at night. Helplessness is a fire. You burn up and there is nothing left but the very core of what you are. If you have ever wondered where my interior world comes from, well now you know.
I don't want to tell you any of this. I remember when I was in Florence, Italy, in the base of the Duomo. They were selling wooden rosaries and I bought one. I wound it around my hand and climbed up through the rat-like path to the top where I could look out over the city and beyond. All I wanted was a path, a sign-post to tell me where i was going. There was no such thing. All I could do was look down upon the city and the mist that enshrouded it. I decided then and there that I would create my own sign-posts and that the city I had created within my own head was the only true city in all the world. I stand and rise up with my own world and am pierced by the spikes of consciousness. I am laid out and forced to peer over the edge of the world that I have created. And that is okay. In all the darkness and derangement of my secret mind I have only one message: I would never trade this for any other reality. Take that, you foolish lie of a life. I can't but win.

Just a minor return to form.

I've been gone. Gone for a long time. There occurred many events almost all at once that matter to me in my life. As for now, let us concentrate on a simple thought. I love this country. The people, the places. We are a nation I can, and am, proud to be a part of. Because of this pride I have a simple message. This message goes out to our government. You had best be afraid. Be very afraid. We will not tolerate your evil much longer. We would have changed things a long while before now, but we so wanted to believe in your good intentions. You see, we tried to believe in your better nature for so long, like a mother trying to keep hope that her son has not gone bad. But we finally accept that you have gone bad, gone so bad that there is no return. And so we reject you. We reject your lies and your desperate assurances that 'this' time it will be okay. My vote will carry that weight and if my vote does not accomplish what needs to be accomplished, then I will violently overthrow you. I choose these words specifically because in legal terms they are considered treason. What I am saying here and now is that if the government is not changed immediately then, by your laws, the only true patriot would be considered treasonous. You have left me and the people who I would defend with my life no choice. You know that in the end, there is no government, only people, citizens who have the power. And you do not want to have to face that power. While it may be one nation under God, it is also one government under that nation. We can give, but we can also take away.